a new kind of normal,not sure

Still not sure how I feel about blogging. Needed to read about how Carol Kent dealt with the hopes , then the hopes being dashed. I need to release my feelings that I somehow can change my son's character and desire to make it. Is he scared.....is it comfort level...... What needs to happen to get him to be confident in himself? I so want him to succeed and I just see him content to be cared for. I love him too much to do this. i am sad and I dont' even know why Im writing here! to whom to me>