a new kind of normal,not sure

Still not sure how I feel about blogging. Needed to read about how Carol Kent dealt with the hopes , then the hopes being dashed. I need to release my feelings that I somehow can change my son's character and desire to make it. Is he scared.....is it comfort level...... What needs to happen to get him to be confident in himself? I so want him to succeed and I just see him content to be cared for. I love him too much to do this. i am sad and I dont' even know why Im writing here! to whom to me>

From Thomas Merton

This helps me to keep perspective with those around me, especially my family.

It is useless to try to make peace with ourselves by being pleased with everything we have done.
In order to settle down in the quiet of our own being we must learn to be detached from the results of our own activity. We must withdraw ourselves, to some extent, from effects that are beyond our control and be content with the good will and the work that are the quiet expression of our inner life. We must be content to live without watching ourselves live, to work without expecting an immediate reward, to love without an instantaneous satisfaction, and to exist without any special recognition.

here I go

I have to admit, I don't really know what I am doing here. It just felt like it was time to start this. Will check back later!